In Fate's Hands

This week has gone far too fast. I can't believe it's Friday already. I've had a pretty up and down week, really, and it's set to be even more up and down next week. Everything is kinda confusing, up in the air. Life is being left in the hands of fate, or rather, other people. Do you ever think that fate is just other people? Something significant is happening this week, which I may or may not share with you, and whichever way this goes, my life will change in some way. I'm scared, because I don't know if I can see a positive outcome. And I'm scared because whichever way I look, there doesn't seem to be a right answer. I've spent the last few days wondering whether in life, we should think, well, what will be will be in certain situations. I've always been an advocate of making my own luck, but sometimes I guess you can't control everything. Sometimes you have to just let things happen. But there is always the worry of regretting something you didn't do.

Okay, philosophical moment over. Let's look at the positive stuff. Well I ended up having a great time on Wednesday night when I went for drinks with people on my course- people who had also been away in America or Canada. It was so nice to catch up with people and hear about their experiences abroad, and chat about what we miss and things we loved and hated. I also decided, by the end of the night, that my friend Annie and I are moving to Chicago next year. Annie, I'm not joking. I am a couple of clicks away from looking for jobs and Visas. I'm kinda going through a bit of an existentialist crisis right now. I don't know what I want to do anymore. Do I want to do a journalism qualification? Apply for more work experience? Work in fashion? Move to London, or move back home? But more than anything else, I just want to get my ass back in America. And I also just want to up sticks and leave and start from nothing.

So this was what I wore today. And what have I done so far today? Well I went shopping with Beth for a bit this morning and bought a few tops and a jumper, and took a few more things to be altered. I also went to Internacionale and found a shirt I liked. Everything was on buy one get one half price, so I grabbed a few things and went into the changing room. I didn't like the shirt, but got a lovely red midi skirt. I took it home and my housemate Briony shouted at me because it's far too big for me, so I called them and got them to reserve a smaller size for me to pick up later. It's funny how I always reach for the same size and just presume it will fit. I'm not used to being smaller than I think I am, and I almost always come back with clothes that are too big. I even tried it on in the shop too, but thought the smaller size would be too small. Now I think it will definitely be fine!!

orange skirt- urban outfitters

orange blouse- primark

striped jumper- new look

brown flats- dorothy perkins

Well, I'd better go because I'm off home again for the night. Remember when I crashed my car? Well, I have to go home and take a Driving Proficiency test, despite being the most conscientious driver I know (I know the facts are against me on this one) and then I'm coming straight back tomorrow evening because we're going out for my best friends' Steph and Ed's birthdays and all my friends are coming up!! I'm so excited to catch up with them all- and I may wear my new red skirt!!

Have a fab weekend!!

Charlotte x